Rendered Speechless

What would your reaction be when your daughter, your only child, suddenly told you that your sarcasm is making her cry? And she was actually sobbing like a hurt child as she was saying this. And did I mention that this incident happened a day before Mother's Day?

My reaction...speechless. The thing is, I was scolding her about something. I am not getting any reaction so I continue nagging sarcastically. Then suddenly she turns to me and told me that I am making her cry. That she wants to say something about the matter but I do not even intend to listen. Then her Dad interfere and ask her what she wanted to say. She told me that I was wrong about the things I was blaming her for. That she is actually doing something about what I am complaining. That I don't see results because I am always busy working. And then she apologize for crying and ask not to be bothered for a while so she may stop crying.

All those while, I keep looking at her. Until the time she turn her back on me. That's when I noticed that I am crying too. I want to say sorry but she wants me to leave her in peace. I pretend to do something to suppress more tears. I am thinking maybe after sometime everything will be okay. Back to normal. And  besides we are not used to being overly dramatic. We are more like the comedic type of family. Always finding reasons to laugh.

After a while, her Dad played a movie. A Chinese-fantasy-comedy movie by Stephen Chow. We had a series of laughs. All three of us. It is not the happy family laugh that we used to have when watching a funny movie together. We laugh all together but on our own. Gets? After the movie, we each proceed to our own spaces without uttering a word. My husband to his favorite sports channel, my daughter to her laptop, and I got my tablet and start writing on my blog. Yes, you guess right. Situation is still crummy up to this writing. I can't make my daughter talk to me even if I wanted to. Partly because I am afraid that she'll get more angry. And another part of me is too proud to admit that I was wrong. All I wanna do now is finished what I'm writing and then go to sleep. And hopefully everything will be all right come morning.

No 'goodnights' tonight.... ;-(

When To Spend, When To Save

I was browsing at the internet for something to read when I found this article here. I just want to share it with your since I found this to be a must-read for everyone. 

Sometimes, saving money means spending more now, or it could also be the other way around. Money is just a paper but it’s as complicated as that. Here are areas where you can splurge and instances where you can spend less, or none at all:

WHEN TO SPEND:

 
1. Health Investment. Yes, it is the most important. As what everyone will tell you, health is wealth. This doesn’t make you literally rich, but you will save yourself from hospital and medicine bills which is usually a big amount of money. You will not avoid being sick in your entire life, but if you manage to spend more to healthy options early on, the more you will save later.
2. Choosing the best PC. At a first look and thought, you would always go for the cheaper one. But if you come to think of it, the best deals when it comes to computers are almost always not on the cheapest one. You want to end up with a lighter computer with better battery life and stronger processor – portability, longevity and speed are the main consumption of computer, if you settle with a not-so-functional-but-more-affordable one, expect to buy a computer again after a short period of time. Allot a budget for a good computer especially if you’re going to use it for work or any important matters. You don’t want to be welcomed by a blue screen on valuable situations, right?
3. Building your house. It’s sure that your house is an investment itself, but be careful on your home improvements like upgrading your kitchen and adding a pool. It’s understandable that you want to maintain a comfortable home and you want to make it easier to sell, if ever, someday. 
4. Go on vacation. It may not be advisable to some, but vacations are the most rewarding things because it gives you unique experiences especially when you’re with people you love. If you can, splurge on vacations especially if you’ve been frugal throughout the year.

WHEN TO SAVE

 
1. Airplane Seat. Everything is absolutely the same; don’t make an effort to book the best seat. Promise, you won’t notice any difference on economy to business class. No, it’s not worth it.
2. Extended Warranties. Any kind of extended warranties on electronics are more or less worthless because if something goes wrong, say on your refrigerator, it will occur on the duration of your manufacturer’s warranty. Also, the cost of extended warranties is almost of the same price of a new appliance. Might as well, buy a new one than spend it on extensions.
3. Luxury Cars. For sure, it’s something to own a car, but be sure, don’t focus on something that will not be useful to you as the owner. Forget about pride and ego, save on car cost. Don’t buy expensive cars because you will pay far more than its worth.
4. Kiddie Parties. Your kids, especially when they’re too young, won’t even remember you held a party. It’s great if you keep that fund for extravagant kiddie party for their college fund or emergency cases and your future self will thank you for that wise move.

It pays to know when is the time to be kuripot and when to splurge. Think twice or more before spending your hard-earned money, unless you don’t care at all.

Independence Day

Today, Philippines celebrate its 116th Independence Day. And I, myself celebrating my liberation. I am liberating myself from negative people that keeps dragging me down. Those people that never truly care for me. That is only on my side when they needed me. Those that hurt me. You know who you are. And finally, I am letting go. I still care about you but I am loving myself more now. This is how it should be. So, goodbye now. Things will get better, you'll see.

How I Survive A Day Without A Cellphone

I woke up yesterday morning finding my cellphone's battery almost drain. I tried to charge it before going to work but to no avail. I even tried to charge it at work (using 3 different chargers from my office mates) but it won't charge. After a few minutes my cellphone shut down. I am left aghast! I am never without a cellphone. It's not only for texting and calling. I read e-books with my phone. I played music and games with it. It's my camera, alarm clock, calendar, timer, etc. So how did I survive yesterday without a cellphone? I DIDN'T!!!!

I frequently touch/hold my cellphone as if I could miraculously revive it by touching. I have loads of time for my work but I can't concentrate. I am worried how would my friends and clients reach me if my phone is not working. Two of my clients already called my boss asking what happen. My day become longer than usual. I am halfway of what I am reading on my e-books app. I am worried about my farm at Hay Day and Fairy Farm. I can't post on Instagram. I feel so down most of the time. Like a big part of me was missing. Sigh...

Today I borrowed Leslie's extra phone. It's for texting and calling purposes only. I would bring my cellphone today to its mobile service center and I hope it still can be repaired. I don't want to replace it yet. This is my favorite cellphone so far. It's a cheap phone but it's pretty functional and convenient for me. I can buy more expensive and more functional phone but I am satisfied with my phone. But not since yesterday. I just really hope it can be repaired. 

So today, I am surviving without my phone. And maybe tomorrow and next day. And the next day. And the next. Sigh....

What Can I Do To Make My Week Fun and Fab?

It's Monday and I am on my 'Garfield-mood' again. I woke up fine with a sweet kiss from my husband before he left for work. I"m up and about to start my busy week and gone to wake up my daughter. Then suddenly we are having an argument. I misunderstood her instruction as to what time I should wake her up. She missed an 'important' class/group meeting. Well, it's her fault. I ask her what time I should wake her up she replied "7am!". And then she's telling me that what she meant was she needs to be at school at 7am!  Duh! That's two very different thing. Well, I left her to herself since her actual class is at 12 noon. She have plenty of time to throw a fit but I am not gonna be there witnessing it. I'm going to be late for work. 

My typical commute going to work is a tricycle ride from our house then a jeepney ride to the office. And the tricycle driver choose this day to get into my nerves. He was insisting that I should ride at the rear side of his motorcycle to accommodate another passenger who specifically told him that she won't ride at the back and would rather choose another tricycle and pay more just to ride comfortably inside a tricycle. Excuse me Mr. Driver! I am your first passenger and there is another woman beside me nearer to your vehicle's entrance but you keep insisting that I should be the one moving. I don't want to make a scene so I just told him NO. And then another passenger came, a guy, and sit at the back and so we're off. But the driver keeps on mumbling, telling things I don't fully understand. But he is referring to my not doing the favor he is asking me. I tried to ignore it but he keeps on talking. I then told him to shut up or I will step off from his tricycle without paying. He shut up, finally. 

I told my self to breathe and count to ten. It's too early to ruin my day...or my week. And I am the type of a person who find ways to smile and still enjoy my day albeit a ruined morning. As I ride the jeepney I took my earphones out and attached it to my cellphone. I randomly played a song and guess what's first on my playlist...Pharell William's Happy! Music really makes my day. All my bad mood dissipates. Suddenly I am ready for the day and even for a busy week. And now, I am taking a break, writing on my blog and eating my comfort food...tacos! So bring it on, I'll still enjoy a fun and fab week with my music and my food.   

Facebook : A Look Back

Facebook celebrated its 10th year anniversary. And as a treat to their millions of patrons, a video look back was available for everybody. It show highlights of what you share on Facebook. It's a short video version of your timeline. It features your most liked posts. And you can share it to everybody. Though you cannot choose what it is to be featured in the video, it's quite nice all in all. Here's mine by the way. Sorry for the poor quality. I did not capture the background music. It looks like a mini silent movie. Apologies. 

Welcome 2014!!!

New Year comes to give us a fresh hope, 

For a better future and success 

New Year gives us dream for that 

We will face challenges with confidence 

On this New Year...May your dreams and hopes 

Succeed with the blessings of God 

Happy New Year and Seasons Greetings!!!

Disappointed!

Been receiving too many disappointments lately...or is it the other way around? See, I never made it a habit of expecting too much from somebody or anybody. But it turns out that they are the ones expecting more than I can give them. A certain person even told me that I disappoint him in many ways. Well,  a woman can only do so much before she looses her patience...and sanity! Still, I will try my utmost best to be the most understanding person in the whole world. It's the only thing I can afford. And if it still not enough...screw you!

So Many Things To Do.....

So many things to do, so little time (and money). This is my usual dilemma. Since my birthday last week (I am 37 now by the way) I felt very left out. Left out in life, that is. My greatest frustration is that I didn't get my degree in college. At my age, and my work term of 12 years in trading business, I feel that I am underpaid and unappreciated. And the biggest factor, for me, in leaving my current employer to find a greener pasture is my educational attainment. I took all my subjects in college but never graduated. I never had the chance to apply for graduation. Things became complicated by that time. Don't ask. In short....I WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL AGAIN AND EARN MY DEGREE!!! I am considering applying at an Open University program but I'm a little bit hesitant. It's the age thing. Baka mapurol na utak ko, nakakahiya! But if not now, when?

Another thing, an "old friend" commented if I became a millionaire since I travel frequently these days. I don't know what century (or planet) he is from. Duh! If I am a millionaire I won't work anymore just to earn sufficiently for a BUDGET travel once or twice or thrice a year. I haven't been out of the country yet. Well, I unfriended this  person from my facebook account already. I never explained myself, I don't owe him that. I travel on my own expense at my own time. If not now, when?

Lastly, I want our house renovated by next year. Whether my husband like it or not! It's high time we build the second floor. My daughter is already crying for an elbow room around the house. So dear husband, do something! No buts, no ifs.  

I hate Being Sick

It's one of those weekend when my body tells me that I had enough. I am sick again. I have this thing with my stomach I don't get. It always act up. Plus I have a constant migraine. And my fever never fails to come every weekend. I really hate being sick. I don't get to do what I want. I don't get to eat what I like. And I look awful. Sigh....  

While You Weren't Here

While You Weren't Here 

While you weren’t here

I cried every night

A million tears fell

Still my heart wasn’t right

While you weren’t here

I did what I could

Hoping against hope

My decisions were good

While you weren’t here

I gained some in age

Things just went on

And life turned a page

While you weren’t here

I just tried to go on

Knowing what didn’t kill me

Would only make me strong

While you weren’t here

A whole lot got changed

My life became different

My world rearranged

While you weren’t here

I had to learn to be alone

To stand on my two feet

To make my own home

So that’s where I am now

At this stage of my life

Still scared and alone

Still coping with strife

And oh how I wish that

Things could be different

That I could go back

To a time in the past

To a time before

You weren’t here

~ Janet Michael

Oooops!...I (Almost) Fell

Last Monday night while I was ranting about how in the world did Nancy Binay made it to the top 5 of our future senators I slipped. I went to my parent's rooftop to get something and on my way down I slipped three flight of stairs. I would have fallen all the way down if not for my guardian angel, my mom. She saw me falling and instinctively she block my fall. I don't know how she did it but she did. On the bad side, as she block my fall I bumped my head and the left side of my body at the concrete wall beside the stair. I blocked out for a few seconds. A moment later I noticed that my family was helping me get off the stairs. They keep asking questions but all I was able to say is the my head aches a lot. They let me rest until the pain subsides. Well, it did not go away entirely. I thought that I had a concussion but I dismissed it immediately. It was only a headache...that lingers until the next morning. I missed work because of that. But looking at the bright side, it could have been worse if not for my hero. I love my mom so much! My guardian angel.      

Election 2013: I Voted

I voted! I practiced my right and share my part for the betterment of my country. I am glad that the queue in my voting precint is organize unlike the other precints. Me and my husband arrived at 7am on the school provided for the voters on our local barangay and at past 9am we're already done. I arrived prepared since I already memorize my senatoriables and local candidates that I will give my vote to. I am now at home watching the news and updates for the ongoing election. I pray that this day will be as peaceful as it can be. And I am hoping that every Filipino voted wisely.

Each Person Shines His Own Way

A samurai who was known for his nobility and honesty, went to visit a Zen monk to ask him for his advice. When the monk had finished his prayers, the samurai asked, "Why do I feel so inferior? I have faced death many times, have defended those who are weak. Nevertheless, upon seeing you meditating, I felt that my life had absolutely no importance whatsoever." "Wait. Once I have attended to all those who come to see me today, I shall answer you." - replied the monk. The samurai spent the whole day sitting in the temple gardens, watching the people go in and out in search of advice. He saw how the monk received them all with the same patience and the same illuminated smile on his face. At nightfall, when everyone had gone, he demanded: "Now can you tech me?" The master invited him in and lead him to his room. The full moon shone in the sky, and the atmosphere was one of profound tranquility. "Do you see the moon, how beautiful it is? It will cross the entire firmament, and tomorrow the sun will shine once again. "But sunlight is much brighter, and can show the details of the landscape around us: trees, mountains, clouds." "I have contemplated the two for years. and never heard the moon say: why do I not shine like the sun? Is it because I am inferior?" "Of course not." -answered the samurai. "The moon and the sun are different things, each has its own beauty. You cannot compare the two." "So you know the answer. We are two different people, each fighting in his own way fort hat which he believes, and making it possible to make the world a better place; the rest are mere appearances."



source: read this from Commuters Express

Welcome April!

It's the start of another month. Welcoming April with a smile. It's never to late for new adventures and creating happy memories.

Oh!...Shucks!!!

It just occurred to me that I missed the Earth Hour last March 23. My family and I never failed to join this WWF organized event to show our support in raising awareness about climate change. We participated by turning off non-essential lights for 1 hour. Even if we are the only house participating in our neighborhood we do it anyways. And I missed it last Saturday. I texted my sister if they participated last Saturday and they did. I think I slept it through. You see, I am not feeling well this past couple of weeks and I can't slow down to take some rest since my schedule is full. I only have a half of Saturday free to take a rest and I guess I used it well and woke up early the following morning for my fun run and the Earth Hour completely forgotten. Until today. 

I know it's not a big deal but I feel that I owe Mother Earth something for missing the event. (Drama!) And as a retribution I will commit myself to run 10K for the NatGeo: Earth Day Run 2013. I halfheartedly said 'yes' to my friend Dinah when she told me that we will run 10K this time for the NatGeo Fun Run since I don't think I can do it. I may be dead by the time I reach the finish line. Finishing 5K was my greatest achievement and I don't think I can top that. But as she said I had to push my limits. Sigh.... It is settled then. It's 10K this time. I'll be bringing my daughter, too. And some of my office mates to make the event more fun. Feel free to join here. 

This Is Not Selfishness

Liars Go To Hell

What I hate the most are dishonest people. Especially those caught lying but still denying. I recently came about a certain information that could ruin the peaceful life my friend she is now living. And this is because of her boyfriend's doing. I tried to confront the jerk...I mean the guy. He accuses me of making up stories. OMG! The nerve of that guy. All the evidence are there and he still denies everything. I chose to be quiet instead. But the news finally reached my friend and she confronted the guy. You have to understand my friend is naive and she love her boyfriend so she is not wholeheartedly convince it's the guy's fault. Whatever! A liar is a liar. And the more he denies it the more I see his guilt. He hurt himself just to prove to my friend that he done her no wrong. Idiot! Clearly, it is a desperate act of a guilty man. He knows that my friend has a soft heart and by hurting his self he'll have her sympathy. Well, bahala na sila. I already said my piece. It's up to my girl friend what to do. I'm still here for her. But I am worried for her still.

Salbaheng Manong Driver

Gusto ko lamang ipahatid ang aking pagka-inis sa driver ng sinasakyang jeep ng aking kapatid nuong nakaraang byernes na siyang naging dahilan ng kanyang pagkakahospital at pagkawala ng trabaho. Dahil sa pagiging reckeless ng driver na ito aqt pagiging gahaman sa pasahero, ikinabig nya ang jeep nya pakanan at nabangga sa isa pang nakahintong jeep. Sa harapan nakasakay ang kapatid ko kaya ang nangyari sumangkalan ang kanang braso nya sa pagitan ng spare tire ng isang jeep at sa bakal na sandalan ng jeep na sinsakyan nya. At kahit na may MMDA sa lugar, hindi iyon kinausap ng driver at nagpatuloy sa pagtakbo. Ang dahilan nya...dadalhin na daw kasi nya ang kapatid ko sa duktor. Ang nangyari iniwan nya ang kapatid ko sa Fatima Hospital at babalik na lang daw sya. Duon pa lang ang dami na nyang violation. Una, kapag may sakuna ireport agad sa otoridad, sa kasong iyon sa MMDA na nandun sa lugar. Pangalawa, kapag may nasaktan dapat pababain na ang ibang pasahero upang madala ng maayos sa hospital ang biktima. Himala namang bumalik ang driver ngunit pilit nyang inaabutan ang kapatid ko ng P400.00 bilang danyos. Hanggang ganun lang daw ang kaya nya. Hindi kami naghahabol ng malaking pera. Una inabala na nya kami, kapatid ko ang nasaktan at hindi siya at the least magpakita sya ng concern. Ang kaso nuong hinihingi namin ang lisensya nya wala syang maipakita dahil ipinatago nya sa asawa nya ang lisensya nya. Kinailangan pang puntahan ng kapatid ko ang asawa nya para makuha ang lisensya. Ang nangyari pa sumugod ang asawa nya sa hospital at inaaway pa kaming lahat. Kami pa ba ang sisigawan pagkatapos ng nangyari. Tapos sasabihin nila hindi daw namin iniintindi na hanggang duon lang ang kaya nila. Sana nagpakita man lang sila ng kahit konting bahid ng pagsisi. O kaya nanghingi man lang ng dispensa. Nuong papunta na kami sa pulis para magreport saka pa lang nagsosorry ang driver pero ang asawa nya tinatalakan pa din kami. ANG KAKAPAL NG MUKHA NYO. Ayoko ng pumunta sa iba pang detalye. Sa ngayon nakipag-ugnayan na kami sa operator ng jeep, naireport na sa pulis ang nangyari at naghihintay na lang kami kung kelan nila kami babayran sa gastos. Ang kapatid ko, sa awa ng diyos ay hindi naman napilayan, ngunit natanggal sya sa trabaho. Under evaluation kasi sya dahil end of contract na pero pinapapasok pa din sya for regularization. Pagkatapos na hindi sya makapsok kinabukasan dahil sa pinasala sa kanya nagdesisyon ang kumpanya nila na i-end of contract sya. Sa driver na si Arnel Dumolon at sa kanyang asawa DIYOS NA ANG BAHALA SA INYO. Kung may mangyari man sa inyo KARMA nyo un.

Route: Malanday-Divisoria

Operator: Cecille Sandiko

Plate #: NXU-717

Ito ang kapatid ko ngayon...