Day 2: How Have You Changed In The Past 2 Years?

 

me, last May, 2011

me, January this year

As my pictures indicated, physically, nothing much has changed. I am still the same pretty, charming and sexy me (no violent reactions, please!). But today, I am more careful with what I eat, I exercise more and I maintain a regular doctor's appointment. Well, it's comes with the age. Aside from that I now find my place and I find me. I keep telling my friends and my self that I am still looking for my purpose and what I want to do with my life. I keep feeling that there is still more out there for me than what it is I have right now. I tried things that I thought would make me happy. Instead, it almost ruin my family life. I thought I would be happy living another life with someone else. In the end, I found out that I cannot be happy knowing that I be breaking my family's hearts. I will never be happy abandoning the most important people in my life. Mind you, I had a hard time admitting that this life is what I really had. But I told myself that this is all there is. And it's up to me to make it work. I just have to do the best out of what I have. And that is my family. I love my family so much and I would give my life to them. I thought that I would be miserable forever since I did not tried to do the things I thought would make me happy. But I am happy now. Very. I have a very good communication with my husband. We understand each other more. And we are fulfilling our dreams one step at a time....together. My relationship with my daughter grows even better each day. And so with my parents and siblings. I guess when you stop looking for what wasn't there and start appreciating what you have, you will find true happiness. :-)