What would your reaction be when your daughter, your only child, suddenly told you that your sarcasm is making her cry? And she was actually sobbing like a hurt child as she was saying this. And did I mention that this incident happened a day before Mother's Day?
My reaction...speechless. The thing is, I was scolding her about something. I am not getting any reaction so I continue nagging sarcastically. Then suddenly she turns to me and told me that I am making her cry. That she wants to say something about the matter but I do not even intend to listen. Then her Dad interfere and ask her what she wanted to say. She told me that I was wrong about the things I was blaming her for. That she is actually doing something about what I am complaining. That I don't see results because I am always busy working. And then she apologize for crying and ask not to be bothered for a while so she may stop crying.
All those while, I keep looking at her. Until the time she turn her back on me. That's when I noticed that I am crying too. I want to say sorry but she wants me to leave her in peace. I pretend to do something to suppress more tears. I am thinking maybe after sometime everything will be okay. Back to normal. And besides we are not used to being overly dramatic. We are more like the comedic type of family. Always finding reasons to laugh.
After a while, her Dad played a movie. A Chinese-fantasy-comedy movie by Stephen Chow. We had a series of laughs. All three of us. It is not the happy family laugh that we used to have when watching a funny movie together. We laugh all together but on our own. Gets? After the movie, we each proceed to our own spaces without uttering a word. My husband to his favorite sports channel, my daughter to her laptop, and I got my tablet and start writing on my blog. Yes, you guess right. Situation is still crummy up to this writing. I can't make my daughter talk to me even if I wanted to. Partly because I am afraid that she'll get more angry. And another part of me is too proud to admit that I was wrong. All I wanna do now is finished what I'm writing and then go to sleep. And hopefully everything will be all right come morning.
No 'goodnights' tonight.... ;-(
